We are settled in our new home, and are happy here, so happy. There are no boxes in the house (but the shed is overflowing), and our days have taken on a normal rhythm, after months of chaos, and it feels so good. The big guys are off at a movie, I just tucked Big T in, and in the quiet I planned to write. Give you all an update. But my heart is sidetracked, feeling the weight and strain of others hurt, pain, and suffering.
This world can be so dark, so painful, so broken. Trauma is felt by the large majority of us before we leave this earthly life. It seems inescapable. It comes in all different shapes and sizes, not all of us will experience the same heartache. But we will all feel broken, that knot in our throats, and ache in our stomachs at some moment in our lives. Some hurt so big, that a hug or funny joke, won't shake it. A hurt that lasts for days, weeks, months, or for some years. It's awful. Daunting. Overwhelming. I am an extremely sensitive person, and have been my entire life and I struggle watching others feel and experience the pain that is felt in this fallen world. If you are hurting today, I'm so sorry. If your heart is broken today, I'm so sorry. If the state of this country and world is scaring you, I'm so sorry. I feel all of this too, but the hope of Jesus saves me. I know a savior who is bigger than all of the pain and fear. Who is waiting with His arms open wide, ready to wrap you in his comfort and his unconditional love, even if you feel unworthy, I promise you are not. He loves you, battered and broken, he loves you. He is a God who will give you peace in a storm, the peace that surpasses all understanding. This earth is filled with darkness and sorrow, but it is not our home, heaven awaits. And Jesus will walk by your side and carry you through the storms of this earth until you meet him some day face to face.
He will cover you with his feathers.
He will shelter you with his wings.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection
6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
2 Corinthians 4:18
So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.
I am always here to pray for you or to tell you more about my Jesus who I love and adore. My Jesus who makes it possible to wake each morning and not feel defeated. My Jesus who has carried me when it was not possible to stand on my own. My Jesus can't wait to be your Jesus too.
I am Jackie.