Just when I think I can breathe a bit easier, it seems something is thrown in my path. A week and a half ago I went in for some routine testing - urine, blood, and glucose (which they are now testing for earlier). Today I received my results. My glucose levels are just a little over the normal level, so I now need to return for the 3-hour test. The same thing occurred with Hackett and after the 3-hour test my glucose levels were in the normal range. If I am above the normal range after the 3-hour test then I will be diagnosed with gestational diabetes. This is common and manageable, but it adds more risk. Any time the risk goes up so does my anxiety. I just want everything to be "normal".
This was enough to upset me today, but I also learned that one of the blood tests that were conducted resulted in a false positive. It initially came back positive, was sent for further analysis which gave them the an assured false test result. That seems like good news, but it is not. The fact that I have a false positive can "sometimes" mean that I have an autoimmune disease that I am unaware of. This does not mean this is the case, it is just a possibility. What?!!! My head was spinning as I took this call. It could be nothing or something simple (even psoriasis, which I do have) or it could be something more. I don't need anymore risk. I can't handle anymore risk. I feel like my body has been under a microscope since May and I am tired. So much is weighing on my shoulders.
I scheduled the earliest appointment for the 3-hour glucose test this Friday morning. At this appointment they will take blood for further testing regarding a possible autoimmune disease as well. Prayers have carried us this far and we are in need of more. I know God will hold us through any result, but I am praying for normal ...
I am Jackie.