Lows, highs, and more lows

Low: Last Saturday I had a scare.

High: I was anxious all week and yesterday morning we got to hear the heartbeat of our little LPS and it brought me such joy.

Low: Last night I started spotting. This afternoon I would now classify it as bleeding. I had Koen one week after my issue. Tomorrow would mark that one week date again. After a few tearful phone calls they are assuring me that because no cramping is present I am okay ... for now.   I also learned today that my cervix measured shorter than they would like and this could cause me issues down the road like pre-term labor. I go in two weeks to have an ultra sound to re-check measurements.

I sit here scared. Pleading to God to not take two babies away from me in one year. I am low and ask that you help raise me up.