Today Kevin and I celebrate 10 years of marriage. We joked about it being "10 years of wedded bliss" with sarcasm. I looked up "bliss" and it is defined as perfect happiness, serene joy. You know what Kev? It has been 10 years of bliss. Serene joy describes the mood we try achieve in our home, and most days days are successful at obtaining. Even in the months after Koen's death, we may have lacked joy, but our home was still filled with serene love. I soak in the calm and laughter that seems to be at your very core. My favorite place to be is by your side with our boys. Even in our darkest of days, you are my safe place. You have been my biggest source of comfort and joy for the last 17 years.
As we watched our wedding videos this last weekend, the songs we chose struck a chord with me. Their lyrics rang true 10 years ago, but even more so today. Even more after what we have endured and survived together.
We sang, "Come What May" from Moulin Rouge to each other during our wedding ceremony:
And there's no mountain too high, no river too wide
Come what may, come what may
Our first dance as husband and wife was to "You Raise Me Up" by Josh Groban:
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
With our wedding party we danced to "My Best Friend" by Tim McGraw:
Oh we just get closer
Every time I look at you
I am Jackie.