I am filled with so much love for our little LPS. I am awe of how God has blessed us so quickly with this little babe. I am so grateful that He has watched over me and our LPS, and even during some scares, we are okay. I need to make room in my heart and our home for that joyous day in July when this healthy, breathing baby, arrives in the world. I think about that day. Having a child is one of the most emotional days in your life, but I can only imagine the mix of feelings and relief we will feel that day. Emotional will be an understatement. Today, I made a few small strides to start that process of preparing our Pumpkin Seed's room. So much of the decor I chose was orange ... how fitting. Our next ultrasound is scheduled for March 10th and that day we will learn the gender. Maybe on that day I will be able to switch the name from Koen's room to either Tobin's room or Adora's room. Not sure if I am ready for that step today.
Much of the rest of Koen's story is missing in this blog and continues to swirl through my thoughts. I want to finish writing it, so I can keep it, remember it, save it, and continue to grieve it. I pray that I am able to do this soon. I thank you for supporting me in writing as I use this as an outlet to process my many feelings. It has been a blessing to me and I am thankful that I can shed a light on what so many other parents have gone through. xoxo